Hello, I’m Mia.
All I wanted was to be happy.
I did what I was supposed to do - finished college, was in a long-term relationship, had a vibrant social circle, but I was grasping for threads.
I didn't know who I was, what I wanted, what was good for me, or why I was struggling to enjoy the life I had built.
Life felt heavy and misfitting, and I didn’t like who I was becoming, but I had it in my head that I just needed to make it work.
This notion that I had to “just make it work” became “unhappiness management.”
And “unhappiness management”, alcohol and drugs are a perfect match. I knew I was in too deep, deeper than I was willing to admit.
I knew I needed to change - I wanted to change.
I wanted to change who I was, how I felt, how I looked at life, but
I didn’t know how.
So what did I do?
I first took up meditation and became vegan.
(Insert kindly laugh here)
Shocker - it didn’t solve anything. I realized my life needed renovating, not feng shui.
The unhappy truth was that I was holding on to a life I couldn’t keep living.
I took a deep breath and decided to let it all go.
I was terrified. I thought I was crazy. But I did it - I began the journey of starting over.
Over the course of just a few short years, my social circle dissolved and regrew, I changed jobs, moved to a different state, studied Eastern, Western, and Latin American spiritual modalities, fell deeper into addiction (more than once) and pulled myself out, got married, started a family, and found my calling in creating art with the written word, collage, and, well - we’ll see what else comes in the future. :)
What did I learn?
Letting go is the most uncomplicated yet complicated thing to learn and practice…
Trust is a verb…
And true happiness meets you when you start following what lights you up.
S.D.G
